Maybe it’s because I’m listening to a really sentimental & beautiful song or maybe it’s because my brain is kind of numb from reviewing several powerpoints for one of my finals, but I always get this feeling in the most random places during the most random times. The feeling of remembering just how fascinating and vibrant life is. Sometimes I feel it in the middle of hanging out with my friends as I look around the room and see everyone laugh or cheer together. Or if we’re all singing along to a song during a long drive or even on our way to get food. Or when I’m sitting on the front porch of my friend’s house at three in the morning with nothing, but the cold and quiet winter’s night to accompany us. Or when it’s a hot summer night where my friends and I go out dancing and get covered in sweat, but are too indulged by the music to even care. Or when the sunlight hits my eyes when I wake up or when I see the stars turn florescent in the night sky. Or after a crazy night and we all wake up together under the same roof, sharing and questioning the memories from the night before. Or right now, sitting in a coffee shop that’s open twenty four hours for finals week where all I can hear are the sounds of people flipping papers over, the faint Indie music playing in the background, and the espresso machines brewing & running for all the awake and stressed students. It may be simple minded of me to feel this way, but it always creeps up on me at the weirdest times. I’ve come to realize that I live for this feeling now. It’s what makes me feel alive. All these moments and little junctures remind me that life is worth living. I know it isn’t always pretty. I’ve seen some of the bad and the ugly that it can consist of. I’ve felt defined and compressed, and I still do. It’s just that all these times make me realize what’s more important and I hope I always continue to have those reminders. I hope that I always want to chase after this feeling, but maybe this is what being young actually feels like.
Also, the company of good friends makes such a difference and I can’t stress that enough. Life is better when you’re around the people who make you feel happy and safe.